I am pretty sure that the headache and nausea that I had for days 2 and 3 of the Clomid were unrelated. I began to feel better yesterday and today I feel fine. I slept for 12 hours on Sunday, Monday, and last night... clearly a virus. Clomid is making me cry at silly things though. I just had to go into storage to try to pull some patients' charts and almost burst into tears. I was the one that put all of them in alphabetical order in bankers boxes to be put in storage. Now there is no sign of any sort of alphabetical system... no way to find charts. I gave up and took some deep breaths to avoid crying.
I ordered our sperm yesterday. Our order is scheduled to be at our doctor's office on Monday so hopefully I do not have some freak early ovulation this month. I am convinced that we are going to be pregnant this month. I am so excited and catch myself wanting to tell people... we haven't even done the IUI the yet. It makes me incredibly nervous that I am getting so excited about it. I really don't want to be devastated right at Christmas. Not sure how to be cautiously optimistic... there should be workshops on that!
Kristen leaves for Mississippi to visit her family on December 10th. Again, I hope that our ovulation is not freakishly late this month because then Kristen will either have to miss the IUI or postpone her trip. I was thinking about going with her to MS, but it throws everything off if I go. Her mom smokes in the house, so we would have to find a different place to stay because I am a baby making machine (no second hand smoke for me). Not only would we need a new place to stay, but her mom will get really upset if we don't stay there. Even though I really wanted to see Kristen's nieces, Mamaw, and the rest of the family, it is best that I am staying home. I can just sit at home by myself and obsess about whether I am pregnant or not. ;)
I am very excited for the Christmas season even though everything is very different this year. My parents are separated so I am not sure how that is going to play out, but I feel like our family (Kristen, Banjo, and baby-to-be) is ready to make new traditions. My favorite part of Christmas is feeling warm and cozy, singing Christmas carols, and decorating the tree... so we will do that and enjoy the season. We are not buying gifts for anyone this year (except for maybe nieces and nephews) because we are dedicating every extra penny we own to the baby making process. For me, that is not a problem... I am not really into the whole gift thing. I am so looking forward to waking up Christmas morning and enjoying a hot cup of coffee (decaf) in front of the Christmas tree with Banjo and Kristen.
I guess that is all from me (now that I am sobbing at my desk at work). Holy Clomid!!! Happy Holidays and baby making to everyone! :)
The biggest difference between this month when we got our BFP and the past months we got our BFN's was that this cycle, we were incredibly relaxed. It was just J and my little secret and we were able to turn it off when we didn't want to talk about it. We didn't have all sorts of people texting or calling or asking us how I was feeling or if I have any symptoms. It was nice to just have that moment and two weeks to share with her and her only. We tried to go about business as usual... I still drank Starbucks (probably about 4-5 times during my TWW). I even played Wii bowling and Just Dance (no being immobile here). I had a cocktail with a girlfriend when we went out to dinner. I think we even went to the Casino once (where it's smoke infested) and gambled for a few hours. We were the most relaxed we have ever felt and it made a world of a difference for the stress factor. We definitely walked into this cycle cautiously optimistic and had pretty low expectations. I guess what I'm getting is, don't stress and alter your lives too much... because you become like J and I... start to resent the fact that we have completely changed all our plans and altered our lives all just to get a stupid negative on the pregnancy test. :) Good luck to you!
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