So, I just called reproductive clinic in our area and asked about the associated fees. First off, they require a bunch of blood work and a first office visit... understandable. After that, the cost seems a little crazy. They said that you need to have an X-ray of your uterus. Now, for anyone that knows me, you know that I am TOTALLY organic and avoid anything that may be potentially harmful to me (or my children) in the future. I avoid things like X-rays like the plague... now why would I want to expose my baby making region to harmful electromagnetic rays??? Call me crazy, but that seems a little counter productive.
Next, they told me that if we planned on using donor sperm that we would need to go see a social worker for an evaluation before you can proceed. Is this normal procedure for all clinics? Kristen and I have spent a lot of time weighing out options, talking to my primary care doctor, friends and family. Now I have to qualify my decision with a professional??? So, I got off the phone and cried a little bit. I just feel like there are a million obstacles put up in front of us. We will be good, loving parents so why do I need to prove myself time and time again when there are so many people that have children that they never even wanted??? I feel a little defeated today. I guess I should just relax a little bit and wait to see if I am even pregnant before I freak out completely. :)
On a much happier note... Kristen, Banjo (our dog), and I went away over Columbus Day weekend. It was so awesome because the foliage was beautiful; we got to relax, and had some hiking adventures. Every time I have the opportunity to spend time with Kristen, I fall in love with her all over. It sounds corny, but we rarely see each other, so I feel like it is important that I feel so in love when we do get to hang out. Banjo had the best time ever. He loves to be in the woods, so being at a camp near a river (that he wouldn't stop playing in) and going hiking was the best! I am really happy that we had the chance to do that.
I have had a couple really weird dreams this week... I hope that means that we are pregnant. I am trying really hard not to get my hopes up this time. It feels like a major loss each time it doesn't work so I have to remain as level headed as possible.