Monday, May 20, 2013


I am officially in a new relationship.  She and I have been talking/seeing each other for a couple months and it is easy and fun and intense.  She is beautiful and kind and funny.  Here's the catch... she lives in New York.  We have spent a few weekends together and talk every day, but I am worried about the distance.  We talked about me moving down there (my life is more portable), but it's scary.  How do you know if it is worth moving for without just taking the plunge?  And would I hate living on Long Island? 

Anyway, I really like her.  She is working on finishing her personal training certification and interns at a crossfit place.  She eventually wants to be a crossfit coach.  It's pretty cool.  After a year of my brother telling me that I should try crossfit and the fact that Traci is all about it, I decided I should give it a whirl.  One word... torture!  I went last Tuesday and my quads are still screaming!  I am going to go again tomorrow morning with a friend of mine and hopefully I will not be quite as sore this week.  I doubt it though!  While it was really hard and it hurts like crazy, I felt a huge since of accomplishment when I made it through the workout.  I feel like it is a lot more than I ever thought I would be able to accomplish. 

Right now my work situation is dire.  I have a nannying job that is typically one day a week, but will be 3 days a week in June.  I am trying to find something else for the summer, but I am not sure what kind of job is best considering I have to go back to school in the fall.  I have applied for a few more nanny jobs, so hopefully something works out.  I am also having issues with trying to figure out student loans for the fall.  UNE is ridiculously expensive and I don't have a cosigner for private student loans (Kristen's aunt used to cosign for them before).  It has been incredibly stressful trying to figure out how to make it work, but maybe it's just not supposed to work.  Maybe I need to find a new school or figure out a new plan.  Who knows??? 

I just joined a church group that starts tomorrow night.  The trip to Mexico really opened up my mind to the idea of religion.  I ended up having a meeting with the pastor a couple weeks ago about his position on homosexuality.  While he couldn't say it is totally ok, his best friend is gay and he feels like everyone deserves to be a part of his church.  I can accept that.  So, I am not entirely sure where Christianity fits into my life, I want to give it a chance.  I know that there has to be something out there (possibly God) and I want to explore the possibilities.  We'll see if this church group brings any clarity to me. 

Anyway, that is pretty much what is going on in my life.  Exciting new relationship, no work, sore quads, exploring theology, school issues... feels like a lot, but I am really hopeful right now.  I have been able to be pretty optimistic about life for quite a while now, even when things are tough.  I am really grateful for the life I have and for the amazing people in it.

Alright, I am off to have a coffee with a friend and then I am going to make myself run today, sore quads or not.  Wish me luck!

1 comment:

  1. Congrats! So glad to hear you have found someone awesome! Then, some thoughts: What about transferring to a cheaper school somewhere closer to New York? Also, there are lots of churches out there that openly welcome gay people. Evangelical Lutheran, United Church of Christ, and Metropolitan Community Churches are three that come right to mind, but there are others, too. You don't have to go to a place that is willing to 'tolerate' you, if that ever becomes uncomfortable. I'm all for trying out new things--so I say move to Long Island, finish school there, find an affirming church, and see what happens!